Die ah Diarrhea
It is sad to leave one’s home but who’s to say that this world is not my home eh… Well home is where the heart is and I want to say that my heart is heaven…sigh…

Well its been the second day of teaching and I have fears… for the past year in Vietnam, I’ve been totally working in a circus where the acrobats double up as the lion tamers and the clean up crew… and a clown for a ring master (ringmasters are the ones who own the circus yes???) …and now Im in a proper school with structure and a proper setup… and my job… lion tamer…

And now that im here it’s a refreshing change, my bosses have invited me to stay with them till I find a place of my own and are even having me at the dinner table… and that’s really nice of them…

Well speaking about dinner, Vietnam has given me a wonderfully unforgettable parting present… I got food poisoning from my final meal on Thursday night (note that Thursday was the night of my final meal…everything between Thursday and Monday went down the toilet whether through the front or back entrance) but hey that’s ‘Detox’ isn’t it?

2 days to go
It's 4 'clock on a Thursday and Im sitting at a cafe with Leon and Ben, all of us at our laptops...it's interesting that instead of talking and chilling, we're all doing some form of work...the vietnamese patrons around us are all chatting, having a nice relaxing time....

Not that I like being lazy/idle but i kinda like the way the vietnamese are... dispite being bogged down with work, they would just leave everything aside and chill out....work doesnt get done and stuff but wow... its quite a balanced life... they can make time for relaxing at the expense of work...

Well anyways, Ive only got 2 days to go and Ive not even started packing and my rooms a total mess... a minefield actually

And im not sad to leave vietnam, nor am I excited to be in thailand...everything is just ....normal....

I need a quiet place
For the past 2 weeks, depression had slowly seeped back into my life and this was from feeling insignificant in my company… I guess it’s normal that since im leaving, people would pay less attention to me but it just seems that as I leave everything is taking a turn for the better. Staff are given more holidays, pay raises, better working conditions… and I had to endure being treated like crap throughout the past year…

My boss once said to me… if you look for shit you will find shit…true…true… and if you are given shit do you eat it?

I mean I agree that if you keep being negative about a situation, everything becomes negative… However there is also the problem of being optimistic beyond sensibility

If a piece of shit lies before you on the ground would you go closer to examine if it were shit? Would you put your nose to it and take a smell? Would you put your mouth to it to take a bite? Would you roll it in your tongue to taste it? Hello…..denial doesn’t help in progress…it hinders…

Anyways, I was bogged down beyond what I could bear and I prayed… Then God told me to go to a quiet place and so I did...

I went to a high place and just gazed across the west lake, the sound of the traffic slowly disappeared as I focused on the clouds and the tranqulity of the water... I was expecting God to say something to me but during the entire time he was silent...and I knew that that was what he had wanted for me....a time of quietness..

I was at peace... and it was nice... so after lunch I rode back to the kindergarten and then the thoughts about how everyone hated me came seeping back into my head... My peace was disrupted and I stopped my bike.... I rebuked the devil and told him to get lost and I prayed in Jesus' name for that...then the voices stopped... Oh how faithful he is...

Good Friday's coming!
Here's a wallpaper for you...designed by me of course